Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Perspective

Oh, that sweet face.



Her eyes pleaded with us to stop as we forced her to drink. Then she felt funny. And sleepy. And she didn't like it. She made sure to let us know. And my mommy's heart ached to help her. To make it better. To ease her confusion and fears. As sleep overtook her, my heart shouted prayers. Please, Father, let her sleep long enough. Let nothing go wrong. Let the results be good. Use her healing to prove your goodness and power to unbelievers.

She awoke, thrashing and crying. We held her and read to her, caressing her hair, whispering in her ears. She calmed and rested on us. How beautiful it felt to let her just be.

And the audiologist turned to us. A waveform is no longer present... it used to be there... the results are clear... she will need hearing aids.

Suddenly it wasn't just my heart, but my whole body that ached. And though I desired them not, the tears fell. I watched her as she lay calm and still on her Daddy. Oh, that sweet face. How will we teach her? How will she begin NOW, after two years without?

And there He was, where He always is if I will but listen. You WILL do it. And it will work out. I have good plans for her.

We will. And it will. And truly, He does.

14 comments:

billandsharon49 said...

Strangely, my prayers have turned to thanks to a wise Father for giving these precious souls to you. He knows how you'll respond.
Love,
Grandpa Tyson

dev said...

With tears streaming down my face, I share your tears, your pain, your heartbreak, but also your thanksgiving and joy that we live in THIS time and that there IS help for sweet Sophie. How right your m-i-l is. God placed these sweet babies into the capable, loving hands of parents that will not make excuses, will not take no for an answer. I am excited, dear friend, to watch your sweet one blossom into the daugher of our glorious king as her world expands...as she hears sounds she's never quite heard before. A wise friend once told me that she'd pray for me my daily bread. Right back at ya, friend.

D's Mom said...

I was sad to hear the news about our sweet Sophie today, but I know this will not hinder ANY plans our amazing God has for her. It's so wonderful that you KNOW that...and such a blessing for Sophie that she has parents that know that.

You know how much I love you and your precious family!!

Phelps family said...

I think you guys are stronger than you may know. God has given you just what you needed to conquer this trial in your lives. He is most definitely giving you the ability to thrive in a situation that others would not. As the scripture says, He won't give us more than we can handle. God has given you both Sophie and Will according to his divine plan. You are fantastic parents--a blessing to more than just your children.
I cried with you as i read your post. Your family is definitely in our prayers.

Grandma Eroh said...

What a beautiful post, my sweet girl. So many people were asking about our precious Sophie at church last night, and while this wasn't the news we were hoping for, I know in my heart that God gave these little ones to the perfect parents. How fitting that he put in your mind to become a speech therapist, Kelly. With Ben's fun spirit, and your shared faith, you make quite the combination. God has a plan for your sweet family, and we love you all so much!

Meshellyn said...

Kelly, I too can't say enough about how capable you are. I know we haven't really been much more than FB/blog friends recently, but you exude such a strong faith and if nothing more trust in God that will get you through all of this. Sophie is in good hands, and when it may not seem like enough, He is there to hold you both tightly in His.

And I too have thought many times how God lead you down the appropriate career path, He always has a plan doesn't He?

Ryla said...

You are amazing people and parents and you can do this!! your family is in our prayers.

Andrea Kay said...

Oh Kelly....sometimes we are given answers that we don't want, but His faithful followers know that His way is the best way. He will help Sophie along her journey and I have NO doubt that she will do wonderfully (along with her parents!).

Harrold Family said...

My (our) heart aches for you and for Sophie. I remember when we sedated Addison for her dental work. It was so hard for me and I was all alone (Justin had to work, but came to pick us up). You are a strong woman who trusts in the Lord and he will take care of you. Even though the results aren't the desire we all hoped and prayed for I know that the Lord will provide for you. I have been trying to find God's strength lately and here are some scriptures that I immediately thought of for you.

Phil 4:4-9, James 1:2-8 and Eph 3:20

We love you and will keep praying for you.

tonya_german said...

I can understand your heart ache at hearing this news. It is the same heart ache we felt when told about Kaity's eyes, but God has used her journey greatly. He will use Sophie's as well.
The Germans

Elise said...

Oh, Kelli. We are praying for you all over here- so grateful for your strength in the face of this- just let her be, and He will provide everything you need. Enjoy your time with Chris and Jen! (((hugs))) xo

Lela Paden said...

your faith is so strong... i have never met you in person, however i love the strong person you are. God has truly blessed you with wisdom. continue to walk with your wonderful God. He is holding your hands during this dificult time. Praying with you.
Lela

Amy in Edmond said...

I pray that God will give you the strengh, peace and understanding that you need.

Sara said...

Kelly, such a beautiful post of your mature attitude in dealing with this hurdle. Praying that all will go well in the transition.